I hate valentines day........but my computer crapped out before I could say why. Ask me about it, and I'll explain.

People are incredibly strange. It's true, everyone is completely and utterly odd and there is nothing you can do about it, there is no normal. Oh sure, we all like to think that somewhere at some point you have to do certain things to be considered normal, but it is all crap. There is no normal, it is all in how you percieve it.......and believe me, everyone percieves it differently, and I'm glad that is so. If everyone wanted to be normal, life would be boring and long, we'd all go insane if we have to be alike. I would absolutely hate a clone of myself, because in all reality, I would find myself annoying.Yeah that's right, annoying, idiotic, akward and dull. Do I see myself like that? Sometimes, but then again we can never see ourselves from an objective point of view. That is why you can never see yourself as others do, and that is also why people are self depricating, because we cannot just see ourselves as anything but ourselves. Not too special, not too bright, our own harshest critic that cannot understand how people could ever handle us. How the hell do people ever handle being around me? I'd go insane trying to talk to me. I guess it is for the best though that we don't see ourselves as others do, or we'd all develop either huge egos or extremely low self esteem. That is always something that get's me, how do others view me. People are not stupid, and they know that some people are dishonest and only put on a happy face to tolerate someone. Call me paranoid, but I am sometimes sure that people actually do not like me at all and are simply tolerating me, and that sucks a hell of a lot. Some people I couldn't care if they hated me, but others actually do mean something and it would kill for them to hate my guts. I don't know, I am kinda conflicted sometimes. I am happy yet incredibly pessimistic most of the time, and sad yet hopeful others. I'm sure others feel the same way, but hell.......I just don't know. I am out.

Thought Of The Day: You are under arrest.......THUMP.
Song Of The Day: Wouldn't you like to know.........

I was so tired today, but it turned out to be an ok day overall. I had the meeting with Hopek today, and he looked pretty interested in the idea and said he would get back to me, as he has to clear the idea with the administration and get a date set. I hope this thing happens, because I think it's an awesome cause and would actually be very fun. Speaking of hockey, I think my team has another playoff game this week on Friday, I am not sure about this but I think it's on Friday, anyone that can come should as I will actually be playing in this game and we might be able to move onto the second round of the playoffs. Things have been going surprisngly well lately, and I don't know why. Usually things take a nose dive after a couple of days but since last week things have just seemed better, I don't know how to explain it. Like everything is finally falling into place when it needs to, and I have control of my life. Well, actually no on really has control of there life completely. Things happen that are out of our control, and that sometimes can force our life to take a turn we don't want it to. It can happen the other way though, our life can just take an unexpected good turn. Life goes in cycles, it's just knowing how to get yourself our of certain cycles and into others. We don't even realize it, but even now we are changing the way we think, the way we act, the way we see people. It just happens, we cannot have any control over it, we cannot change the way that life changes us. It just happens sometimes that you get it good or get it bad. Do I believe in fate or something controlling our lives? No. I do believe though that people do as much as they can with there lives but sometimes it just happens and you have to learn to deal with it, good or bad.I'm out.

Thought Of The Day: Alexi Kovalev is a freakin Ranger again!
Song Of The Day: Ben Folds Five- Smoke