I am off for vacation at Lake Ontario until Friday,an entire week with my family.....joy. I don't know if I really want to go though...it has been fine working here and I go there every year...I'd just like a little change. We all crave a little change in our life, although we have no idea what we want or the consequences of our change. No one is perfectly content with there lives, so we are constantly evolving. They are subtle changes though, and while others may notice them....you don't. You can only see yourself from one vanatge point, people may see something you have always overlooked.....or always been critiquing. People are entirely too hard on themselves and if they could only see for a few minutes what others see, bet it'd be a huge damn shock. So yeah, I am off to Lake Ontario for a week, I guess it should be ok but I will only have my parents and brother to talk to.....I of course won't be talking to anyone else. While I have gotten better, the shyness still haunts me like a bad dream...I can't let it go. I still freeze, I still can't think straight and I still can't meet new people easily. Even now, I can't explain why I get nervous at times.....I don't know why I have been rattled on the topic of talking. I just hate those pauses and silences.....it just feels so strange. The strangest thing is, this year has been the year where I have been most social, but I still get nervous and shy.....I just don't fucking get it. Then again, I never get anything. As someone put it, " Your blog goes like this: I don't get emotion, but we all feel it but can't explain it, and I am happy sometimes and then I get sad, then I don't know why I get sad or happy...ect." Which is about right.hehe. oh well, I must pack and get going...see you guys later.

Song Of The Day:Kermit the frog: rainbow connection
Thought Of The Day: Let it be.