Through The Pines

"And I only hide what is on my mind because I can’t explain,what if I do Lord, what if I don’t?"

I went to the doctors today in the middle of my workday and was given the news that I already knew, I have bronchitus...again. All he could do for me was to give me a refill on my inhaler and perscribe me some drug that I had used before that didn't work one damn bit. I went right back to work though, because he said I was cleared to be there around all those people. I was glad I was able to go back because I hate to skimp out on the guys on account of my stupid illness. It is you know, a stupid illness. Chronic Bronchitus, who the hell else get's this crap? It is more of an annoyance than an illness, because I know exactly what I need to do when I have it, I know exactly how bad it can get before I take certain medication and I know what I cannot do when I have it. This is nothing new in my life, just a very very annoying quirk I was blessed with and I will have to deal with for the rest of my life. Eh, could be worse...I could have an actual disease.

I am in a real strange mood right now, just very down and ancy. I was never one to describe a moment or feeling quite well, but I can liken it to getting injured in the game you have been waiting for your whole life. You want to go and you want to deny your own pain to achieve that goal but the body is just not willing and it saddens you greatly. That is the only way I can get it out without totally opening myself up to anyone who happens to stumble onto this journal, which I don't wanna do.

I would really love to get all deep and philosophical right about now but I am coughing too much and am entirely too tired, which kinda hinders the whole typing thing. So let me just say this, life works itself out eventually.

Song of the Day: Still- Foo Fighters

This is me in grade 9

"I guess I shouldn't tell them that I like Duran Duran"

That is a lyric from a song...I actually don't like Duran Duran, they are a little too new wave bullshitty for my tastes.

I am going to Hershey Park today with Laura, Katie and Nadia and I believe meeting Brandon there. I expect a good time as I haven't hit up a theme park in a very long time and I really need to be bounced around in a rollercoaster. I also just got paid today which finally relieves some of the financial pressure I have been under lately, with owing my parents money and having 4 dollars in my bank account. I am now a little more comfortable than before but still in need of a bit more cash to spend during the school year, all in good time I guess.

My parents are getting a new car today, a 2005 Jeep Liberty. I love those cars so much, the liberty is such a nice ride and absurdly reliable. Unlike the VW Bug of death, which breaks down about 3 times a week and is a total piece of shit that I hate to drive. The Liberty is apparently fully equipped and comes with leather seats, a first for the Keefe family. Hopefully now we can just trash the bug completely, which I would be happy to do with a sledgehammer and maybe some sulfuric acid.

I realize now that I need to get back into shape because I am planning to join the club soccer team at TCNJ due to my re-interest in soccer, one of the best games ever. I also need to get into shape for hockey in July and possibly dodgeball in the fall on top of soccer. Man, I never knew how much I missed sports.

I need to get the new Foo Fighters CD, it seriously looks like it rocks so fucking hard.

Download the song Grade 9 by The Barenaked Ladies, it is a scary look back at the peak of the akward years...the first year of high school. The lyrics hit close to home in a fricking hilarious way and they also throw in bits and pieces of rush songs and "Linus and Lucy." Personally, I think it is brilliant.

On a related note, man we have changed a lot in the past 5 years haven't we?

Song of The Day: All My Life- Foo Fighters