Saturday....thank god. What a long week that was. It had it's ups and downs,but it was just such an exhausting week,from tests to sleet to halloween. I just want to sit back,relax and maybe hang out with some of my friends.I don't really have that much to say,so i guess all that's left to say is.....RUTGERS IS BEATING MIAMI 17-14 AT THE HALF?!?!?!?!?!? wow....#1 ranked team losing to an unranked team. Hey,guess it goes to show anything can happen.

Song of The Day: Cold- Gone Away
Thought of The Day: Never count out the underdog

Oy....what a day. Where do I begin....oh right...the beginning. Got to school, went to my locker as usual, and then was greeted by my friend bobber. You see, Bobber was in a car crash yesterday....actually it was a bus crash. He was in the seat most directly hit,but miraculously only had minor cuts. The seat was totalled but bobber was just fine......fine enough in fact that he continued to play pickelball in gym. Nothing can stop that man. In first period I got a pass to go to attendence.....actually it was a pass to the disciplinarian. Apparently I got busted for getting a temporary ID last week, already having got one last month. Oh wow.....I got 2 temporary ID's in one marking period.....too bad they were spread out between 2 months. Don't they have better things to do than to bust kids on ID charges.....every time I go into a bathroom I find a huge cloud of smoke and usually some drugged out kids smoking....what do they do about it.....nothing that's what. I see kids get beat up, and nothing happens. Cheating happens every day in this school,the consequences.....nada. What a screwed up school, I mean I don't mind the detention but really, this school has much more serious problems than getting too many temporary ID's. Well the day went by as usual, and by the time band rolled around I was getting a bit tired. I was also dreading 7th and 8th grade band night.....and my little child I had gotten. Dave was a nice kid,but he could only play one note on tuba....this presented a problem. We went outside and taught the kids the basics of marching,then it started to sleet.....man,this is twice in one week. I had a jacket but I loaned it to Tom because he seemed to be much much colder than I was. We ended up platooning the jacket between us the rest of the practice.....god it was cold. We finally went in, and had our pizza and such. We went down to the game, and it was a pretty good time. I loaned my band gloves to Dave as he didn't have anything on his hands and all......this was an ok kid and I didn't want to see him get sour on band because his hands were cold. Well,the show was very good. The song we did with them, "The Patriot" was suprisingly good. I think this was our best show all year, and for the first time in a long time.....I actually got the part in Marching Song correct. So that was my day and here I sit now, just hanging around on a computer telling my life to anyone that wants to hear,if you've read this far I thank you.I'm out,gotta get some juicy juice.

Song Of The Day: Weezer- Death And Distruction
Thought Of The Day: RON LELKO!

Halloween.....yipee. I liked this day as a kid,but now it's kinda lost it's flare. I mean,it's still ok with the candy and the horror movies on TV.....but it's lost it's anticipation,the kinda feeling I felt when I was a kid. Getting excited to dress up,getting ready with your bag and going door to door and try to find the good candy....what a time it was. Now though,giving out candy,the kids don't even say trick or treat anymore....it's just "how many." I've had one unforced thank you so far, the kids are just there to get the candy and get out......granted your supposed to get candy,that's the main goal. I just don't see how the kids have to be so somber about it,there is no excitement......there isn't even any effort put into costumes anymore. Changing times I guess.......jesus I sound like I am 40. No more going out at halloween.....I guess it's just another loss of inocense. I mean we all lose our innocense eventually,but seeing it happen just kinda sucks.....you realize how you want to be naive again in the world,just be back in 3rd grade when life was simpler. You went to school,had some fun,drew pictures,learned new stuff,went home and just played with your friends until the sun set,then there was dinner,and then bed. It was so simple, there was no AP exam,there were no SAT's,you didn't spend 3 hours a night on homework,you weren't plauged by questions that ran through your head on the topics of life, and you sure as hell didn't have to worry about violence. I don't know,maybe as life goes on it get's harder and some people just have to rise to the occasion,but maybe it's that life is what you make of it.....you make it harder. I don't know,maybe the 3 hours of homework is inevitable,or maybe it's just that we......damn my dad had to use the computer for 5 minutes and I lost my train of thought. I was yelled at though,which was fun.... My dad said I was critiquing his emails when i only pointed out that he kept sending messages to himself.....which most people don't want to do. Oh well, I guess the ankle is getting to him and I'm not going to argue about something as trivial as that. I definately lost my train of thought though....just a second....oh yeah maybe we make life harder, we learn new things and incorporate that into the old things we knew, I think with knowledge brings harder times. Some of the most brilliant people of our age were extremely too smart for themselves, I'm not saying we are all genius' I'm just saying that ignorence truly can be bliss. They say we learn from our mistakes, but I think our mistakes only inhibit us from taking any kind of leap of faith. We don't learn, we just try to erase......never do that again if it didn't work out the first time. I say screw that, I'll keep making the same mistakes until I'm blue in the face.....if it's what I think is the right thing I'll keep on doing it. I don't know,I think I have completely lost my train of thought.....because I don't know if any of this even correlates to what I said before. That's ok though,I'm known as a random fellow......which can't be bad all the time. This is crazy.....I actually got a compliment on how I looked today. First time in a long time, I was told I didn't look half bad with a tie on. It may have just been joking around but hey.....I'll take it.hehe. I'm out,I think there is a hockey game somewhere I can watch.....NHL rules.Peace.

Oh I almost forgot,jesus.....there was a car crash today involving a 3:10 bus from north. Everyone was ok,but man that will wake you up. You never think of a school bus being in an accident,you always feel so safe in them. I hope the other drivers are ok,I heard they were taken to hospitals, I hope to god they are ok. Just wanted to mention that,crazy happenings everywhere these days.

Song of The Day: Ben Folds: Fired
Thought Of The Day: F major = D minor......theory is nuts!

You could be tourturing someone and not even know it.

My fruit flies died. That epitimized the entire day,my fruit flies died. If you don't know already we had to do an experiment in AP Bio on genetics, and fruit flies were our test subject.We mate them and figure out there genetic traits, the offspring that is. Unfortunately the fruit flies died over night, probably from the cold. I wasn't too keen on the idea of mating flies anyway,but I think we have to try again with new flies. I think the flies dying was just the tip of the iceberg when explaining this week. Crazy things,that's all I have to say, crazy stuff has been going on. I'm not going to talk about others lives here, I don't think it's right to talk about people in public and such. I have realized though,from something that happend this week that nice guys finish last. This guy didn't deserve this, he's one of the nicest people I've ever met......this stuff just sorta happens. It's so crazy how happiness can be soon gained than soon lost, and how the worst things always happen to the best people. I don't know what kind of screwed up world we are living in where as the people with the most genuine hearts get screwed over, and those who seem to be total morons get all the breaks. This sucks,this whole thing just sucks. Shit,I know exactly how it feels too, which doesn't make things any better for people......but sometimes it helps if someone you know has been there. I think I've said too much already,so I'm gonna shut up. I have one last thing to say: You can never rationalize your feelings for someone,it just sorta happens......it can be good or bad but it always happens......you can't stop it.

Song of The Day: Ben Folds: One Down
Thought Of The Day: Chuckles shack of love claims more victims.

Sleet + Band= Hell.....That practice really helped out the old bronchitus. Oh well,at least I don't have practice Thursday. I can't believe it started to sleet...then snow for a while....it's october for god sake! It's welcome though...I like the cold weather so much. I don't have that much to talk about,it was a pretty average day. No complaints,No wishes, No hopes.....I guess I am emotionally drained. Ah well,I'll write more later.

Song Of The Day: Disturbed- Darkness
Thought of the Day: "wait a second.....we are mating fruit flies?.....what the hell is wrong with this school?!?"

Well well well,what an interesting day. I forgot my backpack in the band room over the weekend, so I didn't have a chance to do any homework that was due today,the surprising thing is.....it didn't effect my day one bit. I saw the crucible in english today....which was excellent,what a great book and movie.....i suggest everyone reads it. It deals with how paranoia can get the best of people and how ridiculous the minor things in life can be. Exploiting a town for witch craft was the perfect symbolism for the communist scare in the 50's. Confess and give names or you die( or get blacklisted as in the 50's), it is true.....history always repeats itself. I know people aren't going to like to hear this.....but like every other great nation America will eventually fall.....no nation has ever stayed the world power and kept that title,sad but true. Well anyways, after English was gym.......and some hardcore pickel ball. Me and bobber.....we kick major pickleball ass. Every team faced.....goes down at the mighty wrath of Brian and Bobber......fearsome isn't it??? Well anyways went to theory after gym.....always my favorite class, it's such an awesome learning experieience. The only class I find just really fun....even if I'm wrong a lot in it. The people in the class too are the best,music kids rock incredibly hard. Then there was math,history(with schmitty),lunch(with stiffy),and bio (with psychos). Oh yeah,and band too....eh. Mads sounded really good today,of course we sound good all the time......except for the tenors. I don't know why but I got very sad at the end of the day today....no perticular reason just started thinking about the past couple years. It's strange,you have no idea how much people mean to you until you lose touch with them, I personally take everyone for granted everyday. I just got sad thinking about how many people I've met in my life....and how many I still keep in touch with today. I truly believe the greatest feeling in the world is for that one second where you connect with someone else, where it all makes sense,when everything just goes right. It has happend to me a few times and I have to tell you.....it makes me smile everytime I think about it. I don't know maybe I'm naive or ignorent or both......but I refuse to give up hope in people......there is always good there,you just have to look for it. I mean, come one, look at who I used to be friends with.....i had to see the good or i would have been deeply depressed. I'm so grateful for everything in life even though I don't show it.....I have the best people surrounding me.....thanks.I'm out,Rangers game on. peace.


Song Of The Day: Ben Folds Five- Emaline
Thought Of The Day: Stop it!

New blog.....same old me. Yup,the other one kept screwing up so here is the new one.....i mean nothing much is going to change in this one,it's still gonna be my boring life here for your viewing and reading pleasure. Went to church today where suprisingly the sermon actually kinda got to me. It's about how humans crave to have more of everything. More money,more respect,more comfort,more material possesions. What it comes down to though is that when you finally get all these things,you still crave more. There is always that empty space there that there is no way to fill, no matter how many things you can buy and get. It has to be something more substantial than that, like the big guy always says it is better to give than to recieve....and that is actually true. Humans really are a strange people, how we percieve normal and odd is really out there.There is not odd and there is no normal,normal is in the eye of the beholder. There is only you,nothing more nothing less. There is only the person you are and the person you are to become in life, there is no set way to do anything in life. Like any human, I try to be accepted, try to fit into a crowd. I don't act the same way all the time,around different people I am entirely different.....and that is bad. I want to be the same around everyone, show everyone who I really am. I suggest you do the same,because acting to fit a mold is just not the way to live life,you have to make your own mold. Damn,I babbled again.....like I said new blog....same me. I'm out,I gotta go do chores and listen to music. Peace.


Song of the day: Stone Sour- Bother
Thought Of The Day: Getchoo uh huh Getchoo uh huh