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"and it happens too fast, to make sense of it, make it last"
The buildup in a slow song is something that one can never describe, but can only feel. You sense it coming, an almost silence preceeds it and then you start to feel the instrumentation and vocals rising to paint you a picture of what the song is about, in that one moment of tension being released you can understand more about that song than any amount of lyrics could ever hope to convey. That feeling only comes once in a blue moon when listening to music but when it does, the goosebumps hit and you just feel either euphoric or absolutely decimated(in a good way). I can only imagine what it would be like to compose something that you just know is right, you just know will get to people. People are very different creatures but they are also very the same and I believe that the buildup is one element of music that anyone can understand and knows. Even if you can't describe musically what is going on, you can just feel it to your very core. One of my goals in life is to produce that effect musically, even if I can't compose a single bar. When you really think about it, it a connection between musician and listener that is unparalleled in music. Making a connection is what it's all about, if only for a moment. Not just musically either, just realizing that for a moment that you are on the same wavelength as another human being, that any differences you may have are irrelevent, just being able to look at someone and realize, "They fucking get it man." I am on a continual search for moments like that, they do something to me that just makes me want to get more of them. I just want to know that somewhere out there, regardless of topic, I am not alone in my thoughts. I have found through experience that some topics people agree on but just never discuss for fear of being embarassed or wrong. That is why I can only give people one word of advice the next time they feel frustrated or alone, talk about it honestly and without fear to someone who you don't know that well. Is this risky and possibly foolish, yeah it definately is...but it is sometimes easier to drop your mind and heart onto a stranger or acquantince. The payoff is also fantastic for both parties, you get the connection and a new person to confide in. I think I may have drifted off topic for a moment, my mind likes to wander quite a bit from thought to thought with no real rhyme or reason. So, I apologize for being a spaz(I know Smarsh...we are proud to be spaz's but this is a different kind of one). I am just sitting here by myself listening to music and sometimes strange things pop into my mind. A great man once told me that once you start thinking, you are basically screwed and will end up doing something stupid. I agree with that to a point, but sometimes thinking can do wonders for ones ability to figure out life, one centimeter at a time. If it means being a fool, then so be it...the risks are worth it for the reward sometimes. People don't put themselves out on the line enough I believe, being bold can have it's advantages. Take it from a slightly reformed shy kid, staying back and having things unsaid, feelings not conveyed and basically living life safely but boringly is not a fun way to be. Sometimes you need to be emotionally destroyed to truly feel and live. Plus, most of the time...your mind makes it out to be worse than it is. I don't even know though, no one has life's answers and this is just how I have been thinking lately so please, do whatever works for you...but if you see your life just passing by, grab that son of a bitch and make it the way you want it to be. Ok, I think I am done with my rant now...so I'm gonna call it a night and hit the sheets. Later everyone.
Song of The Day: Rufus Wainwright- Hallelujah
posted by Brian @ 10:36 PM
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