I am very tired right now, but I figure since I am up anyways I might as well post.I can't seem to sleep all that well anymore, I keep on just waking up at random times during the night and just lying there trying to get back to sleep in vain, even though I know that I will always end up just grabbing my cd player and listening to music all night. It's crazy, I never used to do this before, but now I certainly have fallen into a nice little habit of waking up. I don't know, I always end up trying to sleep in school to compensate but it just isn't cutting it lately, I fall asleep everywhere now. Lunch,Math,play practice......anywhere I can catch a few winks. I almost wish I could just get one nice night of rest just to keep me going for a couple of days, but I always seem to crap out at all the wrong times. Isn't that always the way.......when you need things to go right they just go horribly wrong. It sometimes feels like some strange curse has been placed upon me that causes me to do wrong things at wrong times and for nothing to go my way, I'm not complaining.......just telling. I am not an unhappy person, but I am tired in every sense of the word,emotionally,physically and mentally......I just need one good night of rest.Maybe tonight is my lucky night.

Thought Of The Day: ....and life barrels on like a runaway train
Song Of The Day: Ben Folds- Fred Jones Pt.2

I can't explain it. I try and try in vain, I just can't explain it anymore. I can't tell you why people act why they do, or what people are thinking or why bad things happen to good people. We are all just in search of answers, but they are completely impossible to find or explain. We try anyways though......want to know why, because we are utterly so involved in ourselves. Don't believe me? I bet you do things to make others think highly of you, or say certain things that bring attention to yourself, or even say some statement that while you don't really believe what it stands for, you choose to say it to make you seem smarter. I have seen people do it with music as well, claiming to know a band just to sound intelligent and fit in.......I have done that myself. The point is, people do things for others sometimes.....but they always think about how it will affect themselves first. Who knows, maybe people actually do things for others and just not for themselves, but I am inherntly a pessimistic person and choose to think that most people are full of shit. I know who is full of shit and who isn't, it is very easy to tell. I hate to tell everyone, most people are just spouting out bull to further themselves, I even do it sometimes, I'm not proud of it but I do. Look, people aren't bad......there is always some good in a person, no matter how small it may be, but I have come to realize people are very selfish at times and make bad decisions. (edited out a part here.....) Oh well,I'm out.

Thought Of The Day: Some things just never happen.
Song Of The Day: System Of A Down- Streamline

Call me foureyes, for I now have glasses. I am actually amazed though that they make such a drastic difference in how I see things, I never knew watching the TV that it was blurry before. I also never knew how much it improved my driving, now I can actually see signs clearly and be able to read things at distances. Sure, they are a pain in the ass and I'm sure I look goofy as hell with them on, but they do help. I can now actually see the chalkboard in my classes. I think this might actually be just the change I needed too. It is amazing how a slight physical cange can make you feel so completely different. I think we all want to be different somehow, stand out from others and changes in our physical looks can also effect us psychologically. I want to see myself from someone elses eyes sometime, because I know I view myself differently than they view me. That is always the way though, we are our harshest critic and sometimes we are amazed people even want to be around us. There is something there though that draws people, you may not see it yourself but others see it.........it can be a variety of things. I truly believe that it isn't the perfections of others that draw people, but the imperfections.......it makes people human, and that is all we can be. There is something comforting about being able to relate to someone on an important issue, or to just see people at there worst......which is usually when they are at there best. Whoops, i'm out......I'm about to get yelled at.