Unable to sleep

"Til I opened my eyes and walked out the door and the clouds came tumbling down"

Well, the last two entries were two of Ben's new songs...some of my favorite he has done ever, which is saying a lot. I have lofty goals for his new album and I think it will surpass even my expectations.

So what has been going on with me? Well, right now I am in the middle of a project for Com class in which I cannot watch TV or any product that goes on TV. No DVD and no VCR and no watching stuff on my computer. I thought it would be easy, but I realize now how much I use my dvd player to relax. I have resorted to writing lyrics and reading a lot more, which might be good. Shit, I even worked out yesterday and ran a mile. Does TV impact me negatively? Not exactly, but I could be doing better things with my oh so precious time. I have to write a paper on it eventually, but after the superbowl.

Speaking of which, the superbowl is this sunday. I know most of who read this couldn't give a shit about football, but I am into this superbowl. I really hope the Eagles win this freaking game, I have always been a pretty good fan, I watch every sunday with my mom. This year though, for the sake of my mom, I elevate myself to the level of psycho fan if but for one weekend.Plus, since there is going to be no hockey this year, I have to watch some kind of sports and basketball just makes me fucking sick, so football it is.

Personally, I have been working pretty hard in all my classes and I have had a few late nights here and there. I have read more than I could ever wanted to read already and I still have a shitload of stuff to absorb. Other than that, I have just been doing the same old thing. I have trouble sleeping sometimes but I blame the nerves and tea for that one. Unlike another blog which people read, I don't remember my dreams and therefore can't describe them...hehe.

Wanna hear something strange? I really can't put anything I want in this thing because I am self censoring. Some stuff I think and feel has no right for the whole world to read and hell, probably anyone to hear period. We all have our little secrets, some are a little more damaging than others, but we keep it inside. Why? Because we have to.

Well, I am done for the moment but I may write later on when I am bored with no DVD.

Song Of The Day:Ben Folds- Late

Thought Of The Day: The most unintentional pains are the ones that ache the most.

Elliot Smith

Late
Under some dirty words on a dirty wall

Eating takeout by myself

I play the shows

Got back in the van and put the walkman on

And you were playing

In some other time a thousand miles away

I played a thousand times before

And like pathetic stars, the truck stops and the rock club walls

I always knew

You saw them too

But you never will again

It's too late

Don't you know

It's been too late

For a long time

Elliot, man, you played a fine guitar

And some dirty basketball

The songs you wrote

Got me through a lot

Just wanna tell you that

But it's too late

It's too late

Don't you know it's been too late for a long time

No, no

Things were looking up

Least that's what I heard

No, no Someone came and washed away your hard-earned

Piece of mind

When desperate static beats the silence up

A quiet truth to calm you down

The songs you wrote

Got me through a lot Just wanna tell ya...

Oh, but it's too late

It's too late

Don't you know? I

t's been too late

For a long time.

-Ben Folds

Bitches Ain't Shit

Landed
We'd hit the bottom

I thought it was my fault

And in a way I guess it was

I'm just now finding out

What it was all about

I moved to the west coast

Away from everyone

She never told me that you called

Back when I was still

I was still in love

‘Till I opened my eyes and walked out the door

And the clouds came tumbling down

And it's by my goodbye I tried

And I just needed wrong

Just to make it right

And to leave myself behind

I've been flying high all night

So come pick me up

I've landed

The daily dramas

She made from nothing

So nothing ever made them right

She liked to push me

And talked me back down

‘Till I believed I was the crazy one

But anyway I guess I was

So I opened my eyes and walked out the door

And the clouds came tumbling down

And it's by my goodbye I tried

Something to see of her troubled mind

And to leave myself behind

I've been flying high all night

If you wrote me off

I'd understand it

Because I've been on

Some other planet

So come pick me up

I've landed

And you will be so

Happy to know

I've come alone

It's over

Well I opened my eyes and walked out the door

And the clouds came tumbling down

And it's by my goodbye I tried

Down ‘cause the rain on the telephones are

It's ok to call

Now I'll answer for myself

Come pick me up

I've landed

I’ve landed

-Ben Folds