Today was pretty good. I could use more days like this.

I don't know what is even wrong anymore, I should be happy right now. I have no reason to feel this way anymore, but it keeps coming back over and over again. It is like a dark cloud just kind of looming over my head, but I really have nothing to be upset about. I do believe though that the good goes along with the bad. Whenever there is a good in life, there is an equal bad. It is almost like a sick human balance of emotion, or an attempt at a balance. The good never seems to hit you as hard as the bad, you feel the bad....the good just kind of rolls off of you. This week has had it's share of mixed emotion. I got into penn state but my dog died, I aced a math quiz but failed a brit lit one, The Rangers won but the next day I just felt I was being ignored by the world. I am not an unhappy person, far from it. I just get burts of moments where I seem to just give up, where I let myself get apathetic to a point where it is hard to get out. I get out though, someway I get out of it. I am just sorry to those who worry about me, because you shouldn't. I am sorry about the way I act, but I can't help it. I am sorry to those who have real problems, because I should not be bitching with all the things I have been given in life. This is just temporary....and god knows I will pull out of it. I always do.

MESSIER!!!!!MESSIER!!!!!!#2 ALL TIME!!!!!!!MESSIER!!!!!!!!!WHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!DAMN I AM GLAD TO BE A RANGERS FAN!