Leslie Anne Levine

"Only the ashes remain"

I love lazy days like this, where I can just sleep in and then just freaking read a book all day. People really don't read enough books whatsoever and there is so much out there to read that is of pretty damn good quality. I couldn't even imagine sitting down and writing a novel, the patience and time and frustration...it is staggering to think how someone could just concieve an idea and then run with it for 200-400 pages. The creativity and ability, it is mind boggling. I have trouble writing about a page in this damn blog and even then, it is nothing of too much interest. I don't usually have any anecdotes or moral lessons, just randomly placed thoughts that have the slight chance of forming a coherent idea. I also don't speak of characters for the most part, leaving the personal stuff for the pen and paper. I don't really know though, maybe I should open up a little more here...it is rough to sometimes think that people can randomly read about your life but I am on here for that very reason. Blogs themselves are a tool to get people to notice you and care about you, no matter which way you put it. Do people enjoy reading about the lives of others, of course they do...if they didn't, blogs would just be people talking to themselves. It isn't a selfish need to write into a blog, it is a necessary human condition. To have people notice your ideas, your thoughts and your life is comforting in many ways...makes you feel less insignificant. Could I tell you why I continue to write in this stupid little internet journal, even after 4 years? Not really. I just have to write sometimes, for whatever reason. It is a need, a therapy and basically part of my routine now. I am a creature of habit and this has become both habit and necessity. I need to have people see what is going on in the ol noggin sometimes, no matter how scrambled the results may be. Am I making any sense anymore? Eh, guess I lost my focus for this entry and kinda drifted...shit happens.

Song of the Day: ParisCirca2007Slash08- The Dissociatives

Tired

To tell you the truth, right about now...I kinda just wanna be someone else.