All the untested virtues

"Oh this mess I have made"

I have to be honest, this week has been absolute and positive shit. I am normally not a pessimistic or even upset person but I have had just a bunch of things pile up to the point where I literally feel like I am just going to scream my fucking brains out. What has led me to this point, well let's start with the ankle. I tore a tendion in my ankle about a week and a half ago without even realizing it. I knew something was quite wrong with my ankle but I just figured it was a sprain so I played on it over the week, which made it worse. I finally went to campus health services and was fitted with an air cast. The air cast is great for keeping it immobile but is also pretty good for giving me blisters on the sides of my feet. I currently have 4 band aids down there to keep my skin from basically ripping off. I also have a matching blister on the bottom of my left foot from playing with a small rock in my cleat. I really don't mind the injury so much, I just really want to play soccer...it keeps my mind clear sometimes when it could easily be clouded. Everyone needs that one activity that they can just disappear in for extended periods of time...and mine is going to have to wait for a few weeks. It wasn't like I was playing in games anyways or for that matter playing well in practice, it was just the fact that I was playing. I need the sport to keep me fucking sane. Anyways, that is only one thing that has really gotten to me this week. The other things, I can't entirely place to be honest. I haven't been sleeping well at all, I feel tense a lot more than usual and I dread things I should really enjoy. I couldn't even begin to tell you what the fuck is wrong with me but something is just not feeling right at all. Honestly, I hate to write about things such as this but I really have no other way to get this stuff out. If you were unfortunate enough to read this, I am sorry...and next time I will write about something that is actually relevant.

Song of the day: Ben Folds- In Between Days