Take a Walk

"They swore you'd steal my steam to feed your dream and then be gone"

Right now I really have nothing to say but I really wish I did. I wish I could stand on a soapbox and speak my mind for about 3 hours just rambling about anything and everything I know or have figured out that I want people to understand. I have a distinct desire to persuade people, to not come to my side completely but just to understand and budge a little bit on the life they know. Things happen in my mind that come in clear as a bell and are just as soon gone, lost to the trivial things in the context of the moment that override my longterm ability to think about human behavior. " The convictions of your heart and the actual contents of your thoughts are less important, in the end, in guiding your actions than the immediate context of your behavior"-The Tipping Point. We get caught up so much in the situation laying right in front of us that we neglect our own beliefs unconciously, it is only human to face a situation and ignore our beliefs. Beliefs are a concious decision to act a certain way, sometimes you have to ignore yourself to truly be yourself because humans are flawed, and I find that comforting. I enjoy the fact that a person can be anyone they want only under the guidelines that they are human, it is almost like beliefs are something we wear around our necks to show others who we aspire to be but can't quite get there, because honestly...each event carries a different weight and magnitude that could change your belief structure in seconds. I respect those who aspire to be something more than they are because almost all the time, they will become better people for the sheer fact that they devote themselves to it. I also realize though that what we choose to believe is fragile and not without doubt and remorse. I have also realized that context is everything, not a part of the equation but the whole damn thing. You could be the kindest person in the world and still do horribly mean things unconciously, you believe in the ability to be nice...but human nature always seems to catch up with you. There is no escaping context and there is no escaping the person you are.

Ok...so maybe I figured out something to say after all.

Song of the Day: Ben Folds Five- Air