We are afraid to be happy. I know, it sounds stupid and it is probably a stupid hypothesis.....but stay with me. If unhappiness and pity is all you have known, if you stay with something that makes you unhappy because it is safe, if you fall into the same cycles of drama and apathy, if you curse emotion to the point where you wish you didn't even feel anymore.......you just may be afraid to find yourself in an unfamiliar happy position. We like to hold onto things that we know, we don't like to take chances when the outcome isn't already known......we are afraid of what we might find out and would rather wallow is sadness then challenge our fears. I am not saying people like to be sad, hell no. I hate to be sad and depressed, and I find myself getting into the same positions that make me sad and depressed.......but I think we are all just scared. We are afraid of screwing up when pressure is put on, so we fold immediately and just revert to a defensive, secretive, depressing mode. It is human nature to be afraid, it is just a little way of our bodies to tell us to wake the hell up and run. We have to ignore that. What happens happens, and when it comes to fear.....you have to face it. Good or bad, afterwards you will feel a shitload better....your fear is a driving mechanism. It may not make sense, but what we fear will eventually be our greatest accomplishment. I don't know, maybe I just don't make sense anymore.