What a crazy ass day. It seemed like it went by so quickly in some areas but just dragged on and on in others. Some days just end, and some days just end too quickly.....this one kinda did both. The assembly just went on and on and on.......but the rest of the day went by so quickly. Even mads and play practice seemed to whiz by today. I kinda wish it went quicker though, because I am just tired of school right about now. I am tired of the stress, I am tired of some people, and I just want to sit back and not think for awhile, cause whenever I start to think something always seems to happen. I just want to be totally ignorant for a while about certain things. They say ignorance is bliss.....and that is crap......but sometimes it is good to just forget who you are and wander around. I know that sounds stupid and contradicts some of the things I have said before, but contradiction is what life is all about. Think about it, you say one thing.....you mean another. Everyone does things like that, contradicts themselves to suit someone else or to sound smart or to just fit in. It's ok sometimes, but contradiction can lead to you seeming dishonest or very weak willed, and that isn't too good. We say some stupid stuff sometimes, stuff we really really never wanted to say.....but just slipped out. It happens a lot when you are fighting to make conversation with a person who is just not responding, you say anything just to get there attention. I hate that, when a conversation just isn't working but you still try and force it. People just can't admit that sometimes there is nothing to say and silence speaks volumes more than words. Anyways, stupid stuff that spills out when you least expect it. Embarrasing moments like this are common to everyone when they are nervous, but sometimes it can be more. Sometimes a stupid statement is actually the truth in disguise, I know I have done that a few times. Try to say something jokingly and realize that it just was a bit too truthful to your feelings than you liked, so you just say Just Kidding. When of course you weren't kidding, and you get the weirdest stares from people for about a week. Those are what I like to call, "Oh Shit" statements. I have at least 1 "Oh shit" statement every week, but people just don't pick up on it anymore since I act stupid most of the time anyways. I find that strange, I always seem to joke around when around people....but in here I am solemn as anything, and much different than me in person. Don't know why. Oh well.......I guess I am done for the day.....enough selfish statements and rambling for one day.

Thought Of The Day: This is now, later is not now, but it will be now eventually.....
Song Of The Day: Bad Religion- The Lie