What an endless persuit all of this is. I've found that we all are chasing something that's just out of reach everyday. It can be the same thing everyday, or something new, big or small we are always chasing a dream, hope, person,thing,or emotion. It's very strange, how we are such wanting people, always craving something and never being quite satisfied with our life. We chase things, and when we don't get them we fall into regret, and don't tell me you don't have any regrets......because everybody has regrets. The trick is not to fall into a cycle of regret that just leaves you feeling miserable, you have to stop thinking about what you should have done and go make something happen. Some people like the chase, the anticipation leading up to something happening, but it has been my experience to never anticipate something that probably isn't going to happen. Does that mean to stop dreaming? No. Just to stop building yourself up to get hurt when it just doesn't happen. I build myself up all the time, but almost all the time it never get's me anywhere, will I do it again? Yes. Why? because I am an idealistic idiot. hehe. Some of you won't believe this, but I am extremely optomistic.....everything will turn out ok and that crap. Well everything does not turn out ok because if it did we would be entirely too happy and that would be bad. People don't see that there has to be bad in the world, because if there was no bad there would be no good. I know you can say that if there was no bad everything would be good, but that really isn't true. If there was no bad nothing would happen, there would be no opposition to anything, there would be no war......but there also would not be no violence. Don't get me wrong, violence is bad, horrible even......but some people choose to use it, and it is necessary for the balance of good and evil. This may sound nuts, but in my brain it made sense.......I just can't explain it in words correctly. hehe.....I started out talking about persuit and I ended up in good vs. evil.......I am that screwed up. I have nothing to fear though, because there is no normal......everyone is weird. I'm out.

Thought Of The Day: snow day......good
Song Of The Day: The Misfits- Don't Open Till Doomsday