This is as close to falling apart as I've ever come,but dammit I know I will not fall down without getting right back up. It's hard sometimes but you have to percivere,I just hope I'm strong enough to do it. It's happend before and it hurts, but this time is different....I think it might hurt just a little more. It's bound to happen, and when it does I just hope I don't fall too far.......last time changed the way I acted and thought, I don't want to change again.