How quickly things change in this confusing thing called life. Yesterday, I was so happy just because of a silly hockey game,that's all it took. Today though, I wasn't myself at all. It just seemed like an exact opposite from yesterday, like something changed and I didn't take notice of it. You can feel when things change you just have no idea why or how they changed. It just happend, I woke up went to school and suddenly felt like it was all so pointless, like I was just running in endless circles. I felt so damn lonely and I don't know why, I almost never feel lonely especially in a place where I have many friends. I don't know if they could tell something was a bit off today, but it was. I kept thinking about all the chances I had that as soon as they came, I lost. I never feel regret,never....but today I did. It was the first time all year I felt completely sure that nothing anyone could say would change the way I felt. Dammit, why do we have to feel. Emotion only causes pain in life, but we still strive to keep it,hold onto it for one moment. False hopes, dreams that we know are impossible but dammit we still try. I am so sick at trying so hard at the things I really want and falling flat on my face, when the things I really couldn't care about just happen,like when I had a good report card. I couldn't give a crap about my report card or my grades, nice to know they were ok......but I wanted so badly for something else to happen and it just didn't. I hate to feel, but can't help it. I cling to false notions that everything will be ok if I just try hard enough,well that isn't true. I've tried so hard and it never happens,never. I mean things happen, but not the things I want. This sounds so damn selfish, what have I got to complain about. I gotta get ready for my concert,I'm out.

Thought of The Day: Gone away,it's the same old,same old song.
Song Of The Day: Fuel- Daniel