I know there's something wrong
'Cause this night just drags on and on
The clock still says it won't be long
'Til all your hard earned money's gone
The dust and sand is what they sell
The flashing lights and ringing bells
A wish as far as I can tell
Inside this dried up wishing well
I will never go back there again
-Phantom Planet

I am not a sad person, no matter how sad I may look or how many people may come up to me and tell me I look sad I am really not. It's just that some things, some people just make me act differently......can't explain it that well all I can say is that I am a different person around certain people. I think it's actually kind of funny how no one really knows me. I know, I know.....tons of people say no one really knows the "real me"......there is no real me. You may know what I am talking about, a persona you take on around people to give them a good impression of yourself, to fit in. The nice freckled kid who jokes around and attempts to sing. Sure, that is me....but there is more. You don't see the kid who used to be a star wars nerd, or used to be deathly afraid to talk,sing,or even get in front of groups of people. The kid who stays awake at night just staring at his ceiling and thinking. The dreams,hopes,writings,manurisms, and habits.......no one knows. You think you know but you really don't. I think everyone has this side to them, but are just too afraid to show it.....or really don't want people to see it. I really believe that if we do show it though, we will feel a hell of a lot better about ourselves and others. It's the sharing of private things that scares the hell out of me, yet most of the things I try to keep private leak out. Well, I shouldn't say most because there are still a great great amount of things that people don't know. I want them to know so badly.....but I can't tell anyone. It's not a personal thing with my friends.......just I have been burned before very badly by people who I considered friends. I am very wary of getting close to anyone, even though I want to get close to you people. I might one day, and I might even tell you the stuff I have been meaning to say......wouldn't that be interesting. haha.....man I spent the whole time talking about myself.....that's pretty bad. I know it's my blog and all but come on.....people get bored or annoyed when you only talk about yourself. I want to know though......do any of you feel the same way? I think some of this stuff people also kind of deal with.....but no one has said anything about it before so I have no idea. Hope I am not alone with this.

Thought Of The Day: So very tired....
Song Of The Day: Phantom Planet- Something is Wrong