Things change,people change, the world changes. You know, change is one of my favorite topics to talk about because everyone is changing everyday. The person you were yesterday is not the same person as today, it may be a miniscule change but it is a change. I often see a change in a person overnight, sometimes it is so gradual that you don't even notice until the person you are talking to is completely different. I think back on all the friends I have had over the years and it just amazes me that I was even friends with some of these people. I don't know if I changed or they did....but we just drifted apart to such a degree that it was impossible to talk to them anymore. I didn't even see it coming, I saw them one day....attempted to talk to them and realized we had nothing to talk about. You know how freakin lonesome that can be.....losing your best friend(s) and being left completely out in the cold. Everyone has acquantinces, people they just see sometimes and talk with, but a friend is something different. It's someone you can trust, someone you can relate to, someone who won't judge you.......and sometimes you can be completely wrong on who your friends are. Things change, yes that is true......but sometimes you don't change with it and it sucks. I'm not saying that it is good to conform into any set limits, or try to fit in just because.......but sometimes being yourself is lonely. Almost no one keeps there friends all there lives, but some people you just didn't want to just stop talking to......but somehow you did. It's a sad truth in life, that nothing is constant except change and change can hurt like hell if your not prepared. I don't want to lose my friends anymore......but I fear that sometime I will and just like the others it's gonna be regretful and sudden. People change, things change......but I'm tired of all this and just for once I want something stable. Keep friends for more than 3 years. I'm very happy where I am right now, and believe me I don't want all this to go away. You do have to understand something about me though, I am deathly afraid to get close to people. Everytime I get close I get hurt,decieved or both. When I feel I am getting to close I pull back.....and that may be exactly why I keep losing friends. So, if I ignore you.......don't take it personally, it's not you it's me and my stupid fears. All you people mean a lot to me, and I don't wanna fuck that up. I'm out.

Thought of The Day: BLAHBOO!!!!!
Song of The Day: Boom!- System Of A Down