I don't like getting sympathy. I really don't. When I look tired or angry or depressed, people automatically instill pity on me. I may joke around sometimes but really, I never smile that much. If you knew me back before high school, you know that I always just sort of never smiled, never wanted to show emotion, just you know....keep to myself. I now get asked all the time if I am depressed, can I say that I'm not all the time.....no, but most of the time I am just not smiling. I realize what people think of you is irrelevent, but you can't help but be interested in what others think of you. I'm not going to do a self description thing, because I really want to keep what i think about myself to myself. One thing that I will say though, I am extremely selfish in the area of thinking about myself, I hope others will like me, I ponder over what I will do in a situation, I sometimes put myself ahead of others. I don't know if everyone else thinks like that, but I don't want to think like that. I want to think about other people, I want to put others before myself all the time, I want to just rush into a situation with no plan and see what comes up. I want to live for the moment for just one time, not care about anything else in the world.....just live for that one moment. You know what I am talking about, the perfect moment in which everything comes together, you couldn't have a care in the world, and your so happy.....that you never want it to end. To be in that moment is like having a little taste of nirvana......perfect peace with yourself and others. This ties in a little bit, but i think that simple conversation between two people can be the most enlightening and amazing feeling in the world. To connect on an entirely different level with a person is absolutely amazing, to truly see what someone is thinking about, to get inside the mind of someone. I can't stress this enough, we are basically all the same in the world......it'll just take some time for all of us to realize that.

Thought Of The Day: All my life I've been searching for something
Something never comes never leads to nothing
Nothing satisfies but I'm getting close
Closer to the prize at the end of the rope
All night long I dream of the day
When it comes around then it's taken away
Leaves me with the feeling that I feel the most
The feeling comes to life when I see your ghost

Song Of The Day: Foo Fighters- All My Life