I'm a bit calmed down now, ......for a while at least.Just one more thing,never take anything for granted....one moment you think you know exactly what is going on....the next your world get's turned upside down. Don't sit on you butt and wait for something to happen, if it's going to happen you have to make it happen. Don't let it get turned upside down unless you are the one doing it, for god's sake live while you still can. Don't end up miserable and alone all your life because you just wanted to wait to see what would happen.....I've been there and it sucks. I never wanted some of the stuff in my life to happen,but it did and I have to deal with it. Some things were never meant to be said, but they were....and i guess I'll have to deal with that as well. I may some wrong things sometimes,everyone does when they are nervous.....but that doesn't matter anymore. I can deal with my faults if everyone else can,there is no magical formula on how to be act or live. We do what we do and we have to deal with it. I think I might be ready now to deal with all the shit that's been happening.I'm done now.