Experience teaches nothing. I have just learned this lesson time and time again, I don't learn from my mistakes. I make a mistake, I swear to God I will never make that same mistake again, then after I am over whatever happend from my mistake I do it again. It's a vicious cycle, I am simply falling into terrible old habits. I know there is nothing I can do about this, I am what I am and I'll stay that way, but I really want to change from the mistakes I have made. One of these days I am going to learn and finally do the right thing, but until then I am screwed. I believe that mistakes are only bad if you regret them, and some mistakes I have replayed in my mind over and over again until I was blue in the face. What has it gotten me, only just memories of what could have been. Regret is like a small personal hell that goes on inside you, you are powerless to stop it and cannot resist going deeper and deeper into it. All the mistakes you could have fixed, people you could have helped, relationships that never were.....they build up in your mind. If you know me, you know I space out every so often and especially in lunch lay my head down and act like I am sleeping. Sometimes I am, sometimes I'm not. Wanna know what i am thinking about when I do that......my regrets. I can't help but think of them when I am around people, see people I used to be friends with but lost, or girls I have liked but never admitted it, or even people in need I should have helped. Wanna know why I am sad sometimes? I regret many many things, and they keep coming back to haunt me. What can I do about this? Write till I am just about dead and then write some more. This is my therapy, this and lyric writing. I dump all my crap on this little website and hope people can learn something from my mistakes or point of view. I know people can relate to this because hell.....everyone has regret. I'll share some of mine with you, I regret never being able to play ice hockey, I regret saying things behind peoples back, I regret acting cool around certain people making others feel bad, I regret ever stealing anything, I regret missing my windows of opportunity. I have more, but no one would want to read them. I'm out.

Thought of The Day: blue whale
Song Of The Day: Ben Folds- Missing The War