I hurt myself today
To see if I still feel
I focus on the pain
The only thing that's real
The needle tears a hole
The old familiar sting
Try to kill it all away
But I remember everything

What have I become?
My sweetest friend
Everyone I know
Goes away in the end
You could have it all
My empire of dirt
I will let you down
I will make you hurt

I wear this crown of thorns
Upon my liar's chair
Full of broken thoughts
I cannot repair
Beneath the stain of time
The feeling disappears
You are someone else
I am still right here

What have I become?
My sweetest friend
Everyone I know
Goes away in the end
You could have it all
My empire of dirt
I will let you down
I will make you hurt

If I could start again
A million miles away
I would keep myself
I would find a way


Johhny Cash- Hurt

It is all passing by too fast for my liking now these days. The minute I believe I have a grasp on what I want or believe, it is changing around me. I have no idea who I am anymore, at all. I used to have at least an idea of what I wanted to be, or who I was at the moment.....I now am just walking through life clueless and lonely. I really can't say I have made a connection, a real connection with someone in entirely too long. Sure, I have talked to people, I have had fun.....but nothing I do now makes me feel like I really know the people around me.......I am just slipping in and out of lonely nights, writing a shitload of lyrics and holding everything in. It will come out sometime.......but until that time, I don't even know who I am seeing in the mirror in the morning.I don't know, maybe I am just a little strung out or tired......but I just don't feel enough anymore.....I mean really fucking feel. If you don't understand, I don't blame you.....but if you even kind of get it, then I am not too alone in the world after all. Later.