I don't know what has made me realize lately that the worst kind of emotion is the kind that can never be expressed. It's like, you feel depressed, you know you feel depressed........you just can't explain it to anyone else. It would make life so much easier to just be able to just say exactly what you are going through, every crazy thought that passes by through the course of a day. It cannot be done though, there are no words that can ever describe it well enough. You just know in your gut that you have it and that it isn't going away any time soon, how no matter what you do it lingers. You think about all the things you say and do and go over it in your head over and over, just running in circles with yourself. There are two types of regret: the kind you can control and the kind that is absolutely out of your control. You wanna know which one is worse. The kind that is completely out of your control, because you are competely helpless to stop it from happening. It unfolds in front of you, and there is absolutely nothing you can do. That may be the worst pain one can feel, worse than physical pain, worse than regretting petty things, worse than being able to do something and fail. In failure, at least you attempted to try, there is no trying in regret. It's just helplessness.