Confusion

"It's all been done before"

It is strange. Being home like this now, I already feel so very out of place. I stayed home tonight and it kind of bummed me out, I felt empty inside. It is all too confusing to describe, but it reminds me of sophomore year of high school. I had the same feeling this friday night I had every friday night during that year, the very subdued sadness that stems from boredom and lonliness. I rented a movie and watched it alone and I almost went to a movie alone tonight...which would have been so strange. People going to see movies alone has always bummed me out. I know it is just moving pictures on a big ass screen, but something about the idea of experiencing it alone just seems so sad. Maybe it is because I have gotten used to seeing movies with other people, but I just don't know. I also just holed myself up in my room for the first time in a while, just kind of listening to music and thinking. Damn, I haven't done that in a while either. I also haven't written lyrics in a very long time. The whole feel of today has simply been out of place in my life right now and it is very odd to look back. Who knows, maybe I'm just a little tired and cranky. I am sure this will pass by tommorrow.

My dad has been trying to sway me to vote for Bush for about 4 months now, writing me emails, lecturing me on Kerry and sending me articles that denounce Kerry. What he doesn't realize though is that his constant push for Bush, while reasonable in the begginning with some ok points made, has only led me to want to vote for Kerry more. I am not defying my father, but lately I have found gaps in his logic and facts. I have actually researched an election for the first time and I have made a decision accordingly. For the first time, I have disagreed with my father politically. Is this big? Nope. But hey, teens usually follow their parents lead when it comes to politics, so it is something to take note of.

Dammit....I am back to my big freaking entries, there goes my short streak.

Ah well, maybe I should get some sleep.

Song Of The Day: Barenaked Ladies- It's all been done