Saturday night.....but I still feel down.
Trying to remember every sound
That transpired,where it all went wrong
Every moment now feels so damn long
I have no troubles but I still feel pain
I think I might just be going insane


Well that sucked,but eh....best I can do on the fly. This weekend was actually pretty good,saw a couple of movies with people I usually don't go places with, haven't touched my homework yet, and got a couple of sweet new DVD's and CD's. Well with good there comes bad, but the problem is I don't know what bad is. I just feel down for absolutely no reason.....there is nothing to feel down about right now but I still feel like something totally wrong is transpiring. Don't ask me why, but it just happens. I'm sure everyone else has felt it too, just a deep sadness that comes over you at sometime.....usually when you are alone. They say it might be hormones....I say that's crap, emotions aren't just a bunch of chemical impulses....I think they are so much more. You can sometimes just feel something deep inside you that can't be explained by scientific reason, it just happens. I also notice though that people are getting sad more often than they are getting happy, is it just some teenage crap that we have to go through....maybe. I don't know, I see sometimes how people change so quickly, not just emotionally but physically too. Something inherently human drives us to either fit in or be completely different, I don't know if a middle ground can be accomplished. I don't know about you but I certainly do try to fit in even if it's really not the way I am, I've done it before....I'm doing it now....and I'll probably do it again pretty damn soon. I don't know if you've noticed but an underlying theme in everything I write is to be yourself no matter what,it sounds nice in theory but I don't think anyone could actually do it. I'm a straight out hypocrite if I tell you that I act the same around every person, I don't. I change personas around different people, and it sucks. You want to know what I am really like.....this is it. What I write is who I am,I don't bullshit people here....that is if anyone reads this. I may not be completely personal with details here....but this is what I am all about. I'm not some damn freckled kid,keefer,canadian,irish,dumbass,just some nice guy,and self centered ass.....I am me. I am Brian. Well....that got a little too personal....got a little carried away. Yeah,this is me though....and I'm going to try to be this as much as possible but it is hard sometimes. Being yourself get's to you, it is difficult to not be accepted in some places.I think I've said too much,I'm outta here.

Song of The Day: Mad World
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